Live deliberately. You are free.

The world is meaningless, there is no God or gods, there are no morals, the universe is not moving inexorably towards any higher purpose. All meaning is man-made, so make your own, and make it well. Do not treat life as a way to pass the time until you die.
Do not try to \"find yourself\", you must make yourself. Choose what you want to find meaningful and live, create, love, hate, cry, destroy, fight and die for it. Do not let your life and your values and you actions slip easily into any mold, other that that which you create for yourself, and say with conviction, \"This is who I make myself\".
Do not give in to hope. Remember that nothing you do has any significance beyond that with which imbue it. Whatever you do, do it for its own sake. When the universe looks on with indifference, laugh, and shout back, \"Fuck You!\". Rembember that to fight meaninglessness is futile, but fight anyway, in spite of and because of its futility.
The world may be empty of meaning, but it is a blank canvas on which to paint meanings of your own. Live deliberately. You are free.

http://www.writesomething.net/post/1260672/

Your Money or your life

Artist sells life or last 8 years of it

I don't know how I feel about this. On one hand there is the challenge to live longer than 8 years, and taking steps towards a healthier life.

On the other you are giving up your being. Your privacy. Your sense of self. It will now be you and the camera and not just you. You will double think every action. An actor on a stage until you die.

LUNCH PEOPLE!

My other blog, which i also slack on, but has some spots you should check out when you are in my neck of the woods. .

SoHo Lunch

The "Sand Dancer"

The stuff he makes is sick, get past the intro. .


Watch CBS Videos Online

What about the Other 10?

As my friend Erin was saying. . What about the 10 most unsuccessful stoners? How funny would that list be.


Ten most Successful Article

Im growing my hair out. . ASAP

Idaho Everywhere

After being expelled Freshman year of High School in Mountain View, California, I kind of knew that I was in for a change. I did not really know what to expect, although I knew things were going to change, there was no way my parents were going to just let me be done with High School. I was seeing different educational consultants and my shrinks (plural because i would get a new one every month or so). I actually had one shrink that was Mark Hamill's brother Greg. . I would ask him about Star Wars the whole time and then he dismissed me and moved me along to my next one. The educational consultants were "cool" in my book at the time, because they would let me smoke cigs after taking different tests to determine what kind of "school" would be best for me. Of course "schools" really translated to "programs and institutions".

First stop was 9 weeks in a program based out of Loa, Utah - Aspen Achievement Academy. .

2nd stop was a 30 month Program in Northern Idaho, Affectionately known as RMA which closed and no longer operates. . It left me with a very unique perspective. And although i am grateful for the friends and relationships i was able to come away with from it I get dejavu all over the place all the time, and internet ads are even getting in on it.

"Letting go of fear"

One of the final (there are hundreds) "tools" at RMA was - "love is letting go of fear" and after the program they even gave us books about this written by one Gerald G. Jampolsky.

I mean this is a positive thing, but to be reminded of this all over the place and all the time is getting out of hand. Almost anything triggers dejavu or a memory of what i and others went through there. And if i had a classmate next to me to spill to it would be different, but to just be at work and want to just rattle off a million thoughts sucks.

THE PACIFIC

Only 11 days until I am on the Pacific Coast.

Sheep Pig

I had pork for lunch today. . Because i want Swine Flu.

Imagine a mini one of these!

SHEEP PIG

SWINE FLU

I swear

I do work. Check me out in this pic getting hella stuff done. I'm basically a plow horse, throwing my full weight into the harness every day and dragging a 400 pound plow through bedrock. I'm laying the foundation for a prosperous summer and fall harvest like old mules of the 19th century.

Someone has to find pictures and sites to forward to coworkers and others. And everyone here is busy altering plans or designing buildings, so rather than let the chore of stumbling through the internet for morale boosting funny pics fall through the cracks. I pick up that burden. I hoist it on my shoulders and i wield the full weight of that responsibility. At times i doubt my efforts, but i remind myself to be strong. Did David turn and run from Goliath? No he used his intuition and mustered up the best damn plan he could. Did Iron Maiden just play cities they knew well? No they threw all their gear and crew on a plane and BD flew them all over the damn world. In some countries turning out the biggest concerts that they had ever hosted. Did Don Quixote let that windmill get the best of him? No fucking way.

I start getting pumped at 6 a.m. every morning so that by the time i take my post at 9 a.m. the adrenaline is flowing and i can grapple this massive burden onto my tired tired shoulders. Do i bear this burden alone? For the most part yes. But i find inspiration within the fabric of this interwoven web of pictures and videos. Faithfully doing my duty for my fellow man.

IT'S TIME TO TAKE UP THAT BURDEN ONCE AGAIN FOR THE INFINTE TIME

Subway Fare Hike YES!!!

The "L" train is always undergoing "maintenance and track repair" on the weekends it seems. And then they are finished working and you think that everything will go back to "normal", they are at it again in a month making sure i can't get home from Manhattan after midnight. My 12 minute ride, becomes a 25 minute wait for a 20 minute ride.

I am all for track repair. I definitely don't want to be run off the tracks under the East River, but it is hard to take the MTA seriously when all i really see is a dozen overweight guys carrying lamps and sitting on their asses. Are they just looking at tracks with their flashlights? Do they actually "repair" anything? The other night one guy was just sweeping water down the middle of the tracks. The water was barely a half inch deep and he was sweeping it the way it was already going. And in order to support this guy's hard work the monthly subway pass jumps $20?

How many people ride the subway every day?

Well on weekdays a paltry 5 million people ride the subway.
Saturdays 2.9 million
Sundays 2.2 million people.

You figure that everyone when they ride the train they go round trip. . So $4 a person at the minumum right? Unless you are one of those sneaky riders who buys an unlimited pass!

So the old/current price is $81 for the 30 day pass so instead of paying $4 a day to ride it twice or $120 a month you are paying $40 less.. and when it goes up to $103. . you will be saving a monster $17 a month. . For less staff and less service. .

WIKI WIKI

IMA DOW DA DOW DOW DOWN!

Wrap Around Epic.. . View from my balcony. .

BBQ WEATHER IS HERE

HELL YEAH. 70 degrees for the next few days ='s time to grill. . 40's, shirts off, and meat.. Veggies are an afterthought, but jalapeno poppers and different dips will definitely turn up . . Come one come all. . let us grill in the sun!

Top 5 Faves

Fuck your top five favorite movies. Your top five favorite sports teams. Your top five favorite quizzes.

I am no down with the words "top" and "five" put together.

Why broadcast your top five anything?

Why not top 1,000?

Whatcha gonna do when NYE comes for you?

http://bestnewyears.com/events/new-years-eve

I guess i could RSVP for some cramped Club a dub experience. .

But i know you have an epic roof deck in Midtown and you are hosting a party, so lets just get this over with and you drop me an invite. .

Maybe there is a Santa Claus themed party somewhere seeing as i now have this Santa Costume from this weekend. . The hair from the wig/beard is getting everywhere, and i need a really good party so that i can lose it somewhere, and not be upset that it was a $15 purchase. .

King Arthur is a Choco Taco!

Watch the movie.. The hordes chant for choco taco!

Exit Row

Not really a fan of american airlines any more....

$15 to check one bag...
In flight tv is retarded vhs tapes.

The feature was about a choir whose members were all pushing 90 at least 4 passed on while they were making the documentary.. Touching, but where is the recent major release?

My snack cost me $3 for a small bag of chips..

Still complimentary soda and water!!

Blankets stink like dirt and everyone including me has been sneezing..

One of the male stewardesses was hitting on a young lady.. Him 40's her early 20's - late teens - pathetic..

The best thing about this flight is the empty seat to my left and watching someone else watching a zombie movie where Nick Cannon appears to be in the army. The zombies are cheesy, but I bet the dialogue is solid gold..

I really want to pull one of the emergency exit handles.. I wonder if I just hold on to a nearby seat if everything not bolted down will be sucked out?

Canal Psycho

I don't know how people can get joy out of interrupting other people's lives. As if you yelling at me about some crazy shit, is going to change your life... That is up to the individual. You are not happy, you change. Simple enough. If you can't change right now then work on changing at your soonest convenience. Or don't and just yell at me about how my cigarette butt will feed rats and that you will have the cops "bust" me.

If it is uncomfortable enough people will change on their own.. And I hope that the Canal street Psycho I ran into today find's some sort of peace somewhere, and stops talking crazy to me..

Or not, he was pretty mild considering NYC.. I guess

The Laundry Party

Every monday my friend hosts a laundry party at her parent's place in the west village and it is always a blast and a half... Young 20 somethings hanging out in a place that would require their combined income to pay the electricity bill, much less the actual overhead of owning a place within a building on the water.. In new york if your residence borders water you pay RENT. Luckily her parents own it and she invites me/us over to have drinks while she does her laundry.. Not sure if she really saves coin or not doing laundry there.



. I am just ecstatic to be able to A:) hang with her and good people and B:) hang out on a roof that has no westerly obstructions.. Having a meal with her and her parents, she joked about selling me keys to this place that is empty part of the week.. Her parents were not amused, I realized that I just wanted access to her parent's roof.. NY for me equals drinking/hanging out on roofs whenever possible.. Just got to rise above the city and have drinks with good/close friends and then everything falls into perspective...

Indian Friday

Had lunch with the office crew at this Indian place Baluchis as one of our folks is heading for the Old United Kingdom। . . Pretty decent Tikki Masala, not exactly the butter chicken that i ate all over India, but decent.