Idaho Everywhere

After being expelled Freshman year of High School in Mountain View, California, I kind of knew that I was in for a change. I did not really know what to expect, although I knew things were going to change, there was no way my parents were going to just let me be done with High School. I was seeing different educational consultants and my shrinks (plural because i would get a new one every month or so). I actually had one shrink that was Mark Hamill's brother Greg. . I would ask him about Star Wars the whole time and then he dismissed me and moved me along to my next one. The educational consultants were "cool" in my book at the time, because they would let me smoke cigs after taking different tests to determine what kind of "school" would be best for me. Of course "schools" really translated to "programs and institutions".

First stop was 9 weeks in a program based out of Loa, Utah - Aspen Achievement Academy. .

2nd stop was a 30 month Program in Northern Idaho, Affectionately known as RMA which closed and no longer operates. . It left me with a very unique perspective. And although i am grateful for the friends and relationships i was able to come away with from it I get dejavu all over the place all the time, and internet ads are even getting in on it.

"Letting go of fear"

One of the final (there are hundreds) "tools" at RMA was - "love is letting go of fear" and after the program they even gave us books about this written by one Gerald G. Jampolsky.

I mean this is a positive thing, but to be reminded of this all over the place and all the time is getting out of hand. Almost anything triggers dejavu or a memory of what i and others went through there. And if i had a classmate next to me to spill to it would be different, but to just be at work and want to just rattle off a million thoughts sucks.